Calderdale in Recovery

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1 week ago

Calderdale in Recovery

Get it in your diary!Announcement!

Date set for the 10th annual UK Recovery Walk 2018

1:00pm Saturday 8th September 2018

#UKRW18 #RecoveryMonth
#Shrewsbury2018 #recovery 💜

www.facesandvoicesofrecoveryuk.org/event/shrewsbury/
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Get it in your diary!

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We are delighted to have been shortlisted in the Social Care, Advice & Support category at the Community Spirit Awards 2017, organised by the Community Foundation for Calderdale.

Though there will always be people who face addiction issues, we are blessed to be able to offer solutions and ways to help. We couldn’t do this without the dedication of our staff, volunteers and the support of our fabulous community, some of whom are shortlisted for an award too.
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Next fishing trip, 23rd September. Including lunchtime BBQ! For more information, contact Mick, your Recovery Builder... ... See MoreSee Less

Next fishing trip, 23rd September.  Including lunchtime BBQ!  For more information, contact Mick, your Recovery Builder...

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Marc Wilson... right up your street

hi mick would really like to come on this one pal!thanks!

1 month ago

Calderdale in Recovery

Great achievement Annemarie!Today our CEO @annemarieward celebrates 20 years recovery. Here is her recovery story.

My story begins like many others who have been either randomly plucked, lucky, blessed, or in my case desperate enough, to find themselves in recovery.

As a child, I didn't fit into my own skin. I felt less than everyone and everything from the beginning; I was a stranger in my own family.

I grew up in an environment that was was, abusive, physically, emotionally, mentally and sexually. I am aware now after many tears and years in recovery that because of the abuse, I never learnt how to feel my feelings. Of course, even if I had felt my feelings, there was no way I was allowed to express or communicate them.

Even as a small child, I always felt like I was the problem – that somehow, I was flawed, defective, that there was something very wrong about me.

I saw how other children reacted spontaneously to life and I was acutely aware I wasn't one of them. At the age of 5, in the playground not long after starting school, I made the conscious decision whilst watching them play in this spontaneously joyous, alien manner that I viewed with both curiosity and a sense of dread, that if I was going to survive I was going to have to learn to act like one of them.

This was one of the first coping strategies I taught myself.

‘Acting as if’ I fitted in, always with the fear and dread that I wouldn’t be found out, that my fraud wouldn't be detected. This feeling can occasionally still be with me even now 20 years into my recovery journey, which has for me been a daily practice of not using any mind- or mood-altering substances one day at a time.

I am not surprised that this (fraudulent) feeling is occasionally still with me, as I practiced ‘acting as if’ for many years. I did this in many ways - acting as if I was OK, acting as if I was normal, acting as if everything internally was hunky dory. I went to great lengths to make sure everything externally looked as if I was normal, i.e. doing OK at school, getting a normal job, having a nice normal flat, nice normal clothes, nice normal boyfriend, nice normal everything, until I got into recovery aged 25.

It was then the Nice and Normal had to stop or I was never going to recover.

During my recovery process, I learned that from the age of 11 that alcohol took away the vulnerability I always felt. On top of that, it made me feel as if somehow you could not see how raw, frightened and exposed I was. Alcohol, along with the many other drugs I used until the age of 25, was my savior, my respite, my solution. I genuinely believe that had I not found that mind-altering substances took away my fear, pain, and complete inability to feel normal, I would not be alive today.

Of course, whilst chemicals gave me something, they also took away any chance I may have had to deal with the issues that preceded their use in the first place. I would ask you to consider the fact that booze, hash, cocaine, heroin, gas, deodorant, speed, LSD, ecstasy and a few other mood-altering substances were truly my, albeit it unconventional and somewhat injudicious, reprieve from a life I had no way of living and coping with.

Recovery for me means that I acknowledge and accept how well my reliance on various substances worked over the younger years of my life – and that I am not ashamed of my previous dependence or need for them. I would also like to point out that at no time did I ever abuse these substances. They were in fact the only tools I had access to, and because of that I held them in very high regard and treated them with the utmost respect. I was what society claims is a high functioning addict, never using at work, never unemployed, never considering for a moment that I had a problem.

For me, in my early recovery, there was a fundamental misunderstanding that abstinence cured problems such as not coming to in a stranger’s house, paying bills on time, and showing up for work on time. But it wasn’t long before I realised that most of the unmanageability of my previous lifestyle was not quickly resolved and I needed to address the underlying internal causes of using mind-altering substance in the first place.

This is my understanding of recovery and it is an ongoing process. These ‘underlying causes’ infiltrate everything from my attitude and reactions, to my beliefs and values. It is these things that are constantly being re-evaluated and measured against a rigorous self-inventory process, which insists that if I wish to remain in recovery there are no days off.

Yes, it is incredibly hard and at times painful work, but the rewards are beyond my wildest dreams.

I have a life today that the child in me never even dared to dream about. I have proved to myself that not only am I worthy of love and respect, but that if I am in unhealthy situations then I have to protect myself by sometimes painful actions, like letting go of some family members and old friends. I have learned to love without fear of rejection and for loves own power. I have a level of understanding and forgiveness for human frailties and compassion to oversee and get me though whatever life brings to me today. I have proved to myself I am enough & I am always worth more than I first think.

I have learned in recovery that anger is a healthy emotion if I channel it correctly, and that the sense of injustice that is always with me can also be used to help others.

I have come through some ‘character building’ events in my 20 years of recovery, including a chosen period of poverty in order to gain a master’s degree, giving birth to a beautiful son on my own, burying close family members, some who were too young to die and some who’s deaths have left the family without an anchor and in the last few years experiencing homelessness, severe illness, relationship breakdowns and unemployment. These are all events that many of us experience whether we are in recovery or not of course but the difference is I haven’t needed or wanted to alter my consciousness with alcohol or other drugs and have experienced these events without balm or self-medication.

I can say the thing I am proudest of though is that recovery has allowed me to raise my son in such a way that I have never lifted a hand to him and can count on one hand the amount of times I have had to raise my voice. To know that my son will never see me under the influence, and that I can equip him with the tools of my recovery for his life, is probably the most wonderful and valuable gift of all.

It has taken me 20 years of recovery to share some of the details of my story in public and would like to thank my sister who also suffered as children and has given me her support encouragement and permission to do so.

In essence, to finally know that I am a clever, beautiful woman who deserves to be happy, and if I want happiness it is up to me to define it and go get it, this to me is my recovery.
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Great achievement Annemarie!

1 month ago

Calderdale in Recovery

Come down and show your support and donate to our wonderful Disney characters and the community!
Bring the kids, friends and family down for a photo or just say hi wether you're going to the game or not!

We all have connections with someone in need and we are the ones who help so please support and encourage our guys out there on the day!

Contact this page for any further queries!
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1 month ago

Calderdale in Recovery

For all you Happy Voices, it's not too late to get involved in Calderland, a huge musical, vocal and visual extravaganza at the Piece Hall courtyard in September.
For more info, see the website: landlinesandwatermarks.org/
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For all you Happy Voices, its not too late to get involved in Calderland, a huge musical, vocal and visual extravaganza at the Piece Hall courtyard in September.
For more info, see the website: http://landlinesandwatermarks.org/

1 month ago

Calderdale in Recovery

Just a reminder for anyone interested in getting involved in CiRNEXT CiR MEETING - 10th AUGUST 4PM ... See MoreSee Less

Just a reminder for anyone interested in getting involved in CiR

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Fancy a look at the work of one of the most popular and influential British artists of the twentieth century? ...

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I would love to if there is space and I'm sure others across TBRP would be too x

When are we thinking of going ?

Think there is 9 spaces in the van but others are more than welcome to come along if you have your own transport. Was thinking maybe bringing some food and having a bit of a picnic too. A start date is yet to be arranged Michelle. But I will keep you posted.

Thanks Kev I really want to come to this xxx

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